I Don’t Like What I See In The Mirror! Somedays I get up and I am not feeling so about myself. I look in the mirror and think “You are one of the ugliest and goofy looking people I have ever seen!” “Why would anybody like you?” “Nobody cares what you have to say!” “Your life has been one big colossal waste!” Pretty rough stuff to hit yourself with in the morning and not the best way to start the day. Thank the Lord, this is not an every morning ritual! But there is a morning every now and then, when this is where I start out and what I hit myself with!
Wrong Sources! On these mornings, my self-worth is not so good! I want to feel good about myself, but how can I feel good about what I am seeing in the mirror? My real problem is where I try to get my worth from! Sometimes I look in the mirror and see an unattractive aging male and my self-worth goes straight down the tubes. Sometime I try to get my self-worth from accomplishment that others will notice, but either I fail or no one seems to really care! Sometime I try to get self-worth from a job that will impress my friends, but no one is paying attention – they all have their own self-worth battles! Sometimes I try to get my self-worth from things, but have discovered that things really just get in the way and clutter up life!
Where I Mess It Up! I mess up when I try to equate the worth of my life with something I have or something I have done! This attitude causes me to always be seeking to get more and do more and in my efforts to get more and do more, I tend to miss what really matters and that is my relationship with the One who brought me to the dance in the first place! In Psalms 139:17-18 it says: “17 How precious also are Your thoughts to (about) me, O God! How vast is the sum of them! 18 If I should count them, they would outnumber the sands. When I awake, I am still with You.”
I start to think about this life that I am living and remember that it is a gift from God. He must value me, because He has given me gifts, abilities and the opportunity to use them for His glory and other’s blessing! He knows me more intimately than I know myself and He still loves me and with the most amazing love. He rescued me from eternal punishment for my sins through Jesus’ death and resurrection.
It does not matter what I have or what I do, it all pales in comparison to the value that is given to me by being able to have a relationship with HIM! Look again at those two verses in Psalms 139:17-18: God thinks about us and He shares His thoughts with us! His amazing and wonderful thoughts about us are more vast than the sands! (That’s a whole lot more than I can count!) And then I especially like that last part: “When I awake I am with you!” God does not sneak off while we are sleeping. He is with us through it all and He will not leave us or forsake us!
Thank you God for Your love, forgiveness, grace, mercy and Hope! These gifts are continual reminders that I am worth more than I think, not because of me, but because of You!
If this is true in my life, then it also has the very real possibility of being true in your life, because we really aren’t all that different, even though we try to be! Hope this helps you discover some of the worth that God has put in you and hope that worth challenges and changes everything!